I realize that I have been a little confusing on here lately. I guess that is because I have been really stressed out, really sad, and really confused. These last two weeks have been among the hardest two weeks that I’ve ever had.
I said a few posts ago that I didn’t think I was going to get an offer from the company in New York. But then I asked about going to New York vs. not going without really explaining everything. Well here is the deal. They did offer me a job. And so I had to decide whether I was going to go to New York or not. There were lots of good reasons to go and there were lots of good reasons not to go. It was a really hard and stressful choice, made especially worse by the fact that Laura broke up with me, taking away my main support pillar in New York.
Finally I decided, and I’m going to New York. I turned in my resignation to Wash U and will work there through the end of May. Then I start my new job on June 6th. This is a crazy short amount of time to do a ton of stuff. In fact, I have to do so much that it is almost impossible to comprehend. I’m sure that I can take care of it, but it is still stressful just thinking about it.
So yeah, that’s about it. It doesn’t seem real yet. I’m not sure when it is going to feel real, but right now nothing feels right. I know that I’m going to be going to New York, but it sure doesn’t feel like it.
If anyone has done something like this before and has any advice, I’d really appreciate it. Anything to make this any less hard would be great, because right now I just feel sick about the whole thing.