Right now I’m just trying to figure out which part I hate more – the fact that I work so much that my hourly salary comes out to around $15 an hour, or the fact that I’m paid such that my salary works out to around $15 an hour. Lucky for me, I work so much that I either don’t have time or am too tired to do stuff that would require spending money. Win – win situation for me!
I guess the amount of energy I have to put forward is what really gets to me. There is no escaping this job. When I go home I can’t rest, because there is a good chance that I’m going to get an email on my Blackberry giving me an assignment to do. Last night my boss was sending me things to do at 10:30 at night. And if I don’t do them, then I’m not a team player and my possibility for a raise goes down dramatically. (Not that I think it is that great anyway.) If I could put the job away at the end of the day, it would be great. But I can’t. I always feel like I’m working – sometimes I just don’t have to be in the office. Someone mentioned the phrase “Indentured servant” and I think that fits quite nicely.
Mentally the job is okay. Sometimes I get interesting stuff to do, sometimes not. I’m thinking that maybe I want to try to get into programming, and this job is defintely not they way to go, but that’s alright for now. If I could work on more project stuff as opposed to phone stuff I think I’d be happy. Or if I felt like I was actually learning how things worked instead of being fed the bare minimum of information to do my job. Or if my salary were higher…
Admittedly, part of the problem right now is that Joe, one of my former co-workers, quit, so there is much more work for those of us who are left. That should be solved soon, however, as they are in the process of hiring someone new. Someone who will be making between 8 and 18 thousand dollars a year more than me to do the same thing. But at least someone else to help out.
But even if this new person works out great, I just don’t know. I don’t want a job that requires so much of my time. It isn’t like I’m one of the owners – I have no investment in this company beyond my paycheck. While I can see their desire to stay up until all hours trying to make everything work, I have no desire, and I shouldn’t be expected to. This isn’t mine. I just work there.
And I guess I don’t really even have a right to bitch about the salary. I did agree to it. So how now can I attempt to say that it is unfair?
Oh well, at least the city is a great place to be.