You may or may not believe this, gentle reader, but I am quite often ashamed of my behavior. So since my weblog has morphed into the male equivalent of the “women with a problem” blog that I described years and years ago, I figured that I’d blog about it.
So yeah, quite often I’ll do something that I’m ashamed of, feel bad or guilty about it right away, and sometimes get angry with the person who I was interacting with, and sometimes just slink away.
I figure that there are basically two ways of dealing with this. Option #1 would be to stop doing things that I’m ashamed of. Well that isn’t going to happen. I practically survive off of bad ideas and poor execution of the good ideas that I do have. So I guess I’m going to go with Option #B. Eating a jolly rancher every time I feel ashamed. That will cause my blood sugar to go up, and make me feel like crap, thus teaching me not to feel shame.
Perfect plan, right?
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NO NO NO. Messing with your blood sugar is NOT an option. Sometimes your behavior is less than you would wish it to be, but work on controlling your behavior and above all controlling your blood sugar.
I find that the best way to avoid shame is to just do something really terrible (like beat up a hobo), and then all of the other stuff you do doesn’t seem so bad in comparison.
Goddamn hobos!
vicious cycle. i live in shame and crisis. not sure if i control it or it controls me. we all have our vices to cope… i will not list mine since you are family, and i don’t want to feel ashamed.