Yesterday I had an experience that I don’t really want to explain in full detail on here. But let’s just say that I was very excited before it happened, and spent all weekend looking forward to it and preparing for it. It seemed like a really good way for me to fix a couple of problems that I’m having right now, and it also seemed like the perfect sort of thing for me. Hopes were very, very high.
And then the thing happened. And I was completely let down. Not only did it not fix anything, but it sort of made things worse. And I think that’s because my expectations were so high that problems were going to be solved, that when nothing was solved at all, I sank even lower than when I started.
I’m sorry that this is so vague, but it has to be.
Anyway, that brings up a terrible habit I have, which is getting huge expectations for things, only to be let down by them, and be worse off. I try to not do it. I try to temper my expectations beforehand. I’ll even say the right things, out loud and to myself. “Oh, I’m just going to see how it goes. I don’t really expect anything from it.” But deep down I know that isn’t true. I know that I’m hoping things will be amazing.
I don’t really know what to do about this. I guess it really isn’t that huge of a problem in the scheme of things. I’m just really bummed right now about being so let down yesterday.
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My platitudes are quite ridiculous considering how many mistakes I’ve made and how many times I’ve flubbed up, yet I have been on this earth a long time and have learned a little. Sadly there aren’t many times when there is a quick easy fix. Mainly you have to just dig in and do the best you can in any circumstances and make the very most of whatever good does come your way. Hang in there and dont ever give up hoping.
The title of this post got my hopes up. And then it was depressing.
How ironic.
I know that meth can be a little bit of a letdown the first time you give it a shot, but keep with it; eventually it will pay off. You’ll be fine!